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Monday, November 10, 2014

843 Seymour Street, Vancouver, BC
5:45 to 8:45 PM

Collaboration and connections – it’s what let’s wonderful things happen. The Quiet Hearts Ensemble is pleased to part of a great collaboration – Mark E. Sackett (The Art of Active Networking), Roger Killen (Vancouver Business Network) and the Quiet Hearts Ensemble.

Since meeting Mark last year, I’ve been attending his networking events whenever he comes to Vancouver. These are rare opportunities as he spends most of his time in New York and San Francisco doing these events. Mark has been a fan of Quiet Hearts Ensemble and takes time to enjoy our weekly Music Oasis events whenever he is in town. Mark shared the idea of having his next Art of Active Networking meeting at St Andrew’s-Wesley so we could contribute some music during the event. I loved the idea, but came up against a wall. The church was already booked during the evening of November 10.

Where else? I thought of Roger Killen. He hosts his own weekly Vancouver Business Network meetings at Pyatt Hall, a venue with a $240,000 Steinway Grand sitting on the stage. So I contacted Roger and connected him with Mark. Because Roger’s usual meeting fell on Remembrance Day, he did not have a meeting scheduled that week. He made a call to his Pyatt Hall contact and was able to book Pyatt Hall for November 10 in lieu of his regular Tuesday booking. Thank you Roger for making this possible.

If you have been wanting to but unable to attend one of our weekly Music Oasis events at St. Andrew’s-Wesley United Church, we’ll be giving a special 20 minute performance at during Mark E. Sackett’s next Art of Active Networking event here in Vancouver. I’m salivating at the opportunity to create music on Pyatt Hall’s $240,000 concert grand Steinway.

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About the Art of Active Networking
“Do you hate Networking as much as most of us do? Are you also bad at it, often wondering why no one returns your calls or follows up with you after a “Networking Event”? Join us for a very special edition of “The Art of Active Networking” in Vancouver, BC.

On Monday November 10th we are going to hold a special edition at Pyatt Hall in a joint event with Roger Killen of Vancouver Business Network featuring a special performance by the Quiet Hearts Ensemble (Craig Addy of Under The Piano, Howard Meadows, clarinet & recorders, and Mark De Silva, violin & vocals).”

For tickets and more information about this event:
TheArtofActiveNetworking.com

About the Vancouver Business Network
The Vancouver Business Network Meetup (VBN) was founded in March 2010 and today is the largest community of active and aspiring small business owners in Canada.
VBN holds inexpensive, high-quality seminars and networking events every week. These events help small business owners, entrepreneurs and marketing professionals learn, network and grow. They learn new tactics, tools and techniques. They network with like-minded people. They grow their networks, their businesses and their characters.

more…
Founder: Iman Aghay
Co-organizeer: Roger Killen
Vancouver Business Network

 

Listen to Quiet Hearts here:

 

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Friday, November 7, 2014

Black Gold

Under the Piano at Interesting Vancouver

Taste the Sonic Version of Beluga Caviar, also known as Black Gold and the most expensive food in the world.

SFU Woodwards
149 W Hastings Street, Vancouver, BC
6:00 PM to 11:00 PM

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Black gold. What a fitting gustatory match for a lustrous black Fazioli with real gold hinges. Under the Piano is thrilled to be the featured musical artist at this year’s Interesting Vancouver. This won’t be any old “music in the background” experience. No, Interesting Vancouver has a commitment to things being – you guessed it – interesting. I’ll be in SFU’s wonderful World Art Centre with a luscious Fazioli grand piano, generously provided by Manuel Bernaschek of Showcase Pianos, and doing mini Under the Piano sessions for guests during the event. The plan is to set this up as a concert in the round with limited seating to encourage intimacy and connection between me and you. Lucky listeners will be able to submit a written request that conveys a simple emotion, thought, or intention and then I will capture that in music as they lie Under the Piano.

If you’ve been intrigued about Under the Piano, but have not yet made the leap, here’s a chance to get a taste of what it’s like. It’s also a special and rare chance to experience the sound of a Fazioli piano. Many notable pianists consider the Fazioli the greatest piano being built today.

Discover what a $250,000 9 foot Fazioli Grand Piano looks and sounds like.

Discover what it is like to have a spontaneous composition created just for you.

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About Interesting Vancouver

“A fascinating gathering of the curious and unexpected. Catalyzing creativity, community and capacity. More than another “sage on the stage” lecture series, Interesting Vancouver is an event that celebrates the uncelebrated, expands the collective vision of what is uniquely possible, and gives people an opportunity to discover interesting new creative pursuits they can apply in their own lives. Celebrating the uncelebrated. Interesting Vancouver is an annual community gathering showcasing the region’s most fascinating people and the way they express their creativity through their hobbies, passions and obsessions.”

www.interestingvancouver.com
Interesting Vancouver sells out. If you wish to attend, get your tickets now at:
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Music Oasis with The Soul of Sound

Wednesday, October 29, 2014
St Andrew’s-Wesley Church
In the Sanctuary
1012 Nelson Street (enter off Burrard)
4:30 to 5:45 PM

Special Guest – Kathy Cameron of The Soul of Sound.

Entice and intrigue your ears with new and unusual (but always beautiful) sounds. Kathy Cameron of The Soul of Sound joins the Quiet Hearts Ensemble for Music Oasis on Wednesday, October 29, 2014. Kathy’s wonderful gongs, singing bowls, chimes, and drums add a whole new dimension of creativity and adventure to our improvised music.

What is “Music Oasis”

The Quiet Hearts Ensemble’s “Music Oasis” series is one of Vancouver’s most exquisite and unique experiences. It is an intimate and relaxing musical occasion that is like a holiday away from everyday pressures. Entering St Andrew’s-Wesley’s magical space is like discovering an oasis in a stressful and noisy urban environment. Professional musicians spontaneously compose beautiful music in one of Vancouver’s most stunning cathedral acoustics. Music Oasis listeners are transported, moved and inspired by enchanting flavours of music embracing classical, new age, jazz, folk and world styles. It’s romantic. It’s meditative. It’s soothing. Listeners rave that they “can’t believe” these musical journeys are spontaneously composed on the spot. Quiet Hearts is truly a journey in a musical oasis.

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Who is the Quiet Hearts Ensemble?
Amicus Music Duo – Craig Addy, piano & organ  &  Howard Meadows, clarinet, flute, recorders
Mark De Silva, violin & vocals
Special Guest – Kathy Cameron of The Soul of Sound, percussion

Listen to Kathy Cameron with Quiet Hearts Ensemble


 


 

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When you give the gift of an Under the Piano session to yourself or another, you can feel secure in knowing that you have stepped outside the banal and predictable and given an experience to be remembered forever and unlike any had before. Yes, the advantage of lying under a piano, is that you will experience music in a way you never have before and in a way that impacts you unexpectedly and wonderfully. You will have impressed yourself or the lucky gift recipient with your brilliance at making such a choice for a present. This is what happens when you lounge in a “cocoon of pillows and blankets underneath a grand piano, surrounded by candles and lovely scents” and then listen to a a series of improvised pieces literally composed just for you in the moment.

This offer expires on Wednesday, October 1 at midnight.

The offer is two Under the Piano sessions for the price of one.

I know Halloween is not even here, but here is a rare opportunity to have one or two magical and truly unique Christmas or Birthday gifts in the bag now.

If you love piano music, or you have people in your life who love music and unique and adventurous experiences, look no further. An Under the Piano session is it. If you are looking for interesting things to do in Vancouver, your lucky, because Under the Piano is it and it’s only available in Vancouver. As a recent client, Caitlin Bryant, aptly describes it:

…This was such a unique and life affirming experience. It’s like cultural skydiving…

This offer is only available to the first 3 people who grab it or for the 1 person who wants all 6 available certificates.

Purchase one Under the Piano certificate and get a second one of equal value at no additional cost. The certificates can be for your personal use or one or all can be a great gift for friends and family. The second certificate will be an exact match for the first.

Examples

  • Purchase a session for one with a downloadable MP3 recording and get a second certificate with the same options at no additional cost – Price for 2 certificates: $115 plus GST  (regularly $230)
  • Purchase a couple’s session with an audio CD recording and get a second certificate with the same options at no additional cost – Price for 2 certificates: $175 plus GST (regularly $350)

If you’ve experienced Under the Piano before, you know what you’re getting. If not, here’s another wonderful description that gives a glimpse into this amazing experience.

5 Star Yelp Review from Angela Chan

My husband & I were treated to a truly unique, private concert for our anniversary. We lounged in a cocoon of pillows and blankets underneath a baby grand, surrounded by candles and lovely scents. Craig Addy improvised (!!!!) a series of lovely, soulful, meditative, never-played-before music that you can literally FEEL all over; the vibrations enfold and lift with the crescendos, and gently floats you down with the softer parts… and lasts long after the last note fades from hearing.

I wish I could be Under the Piano every day, if only for a few minutes, to be totally immersed in life-affirming music and emerge both calmed and energized. At least I have the MP3s (also available as CD) to remind me of this amazing treat.

A magical experience — I recommend this as a PERFECT gift for anyone who loves music, needs a spiritual pick-up, loves unique experiences, or “already has everything”.

 

Listen to a track from Angela’s session.

Remember, this offer expires on Wednesday, October 1 at midnight.

 Payment: Credit Card or INTERAC eTransfer

Call me at 604-662-3053 to purchase your certificates or if you have any questions.

Learn more about Under the Piano at www.UnderThePiano.ca

A customized certificate will be emailed to you upon receipt of payment. This offer is exclusive and not applicable in conjunction with any other special offers or discounts.

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It’s Good to Remember…

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Heraclitus by Johannes Moreelse. The image depicts him as “the weeping philosopher”

It’s Good to Remember…

It’s good to remember why you are doing what you do.
It’s good to remember why you’re passionate about what you do.
It’s good to remember what’s possible for the world in pursuing your inspirations.

But,

It’s never completely handled. At least, not for me. In an instant, I can forget the sheer joy, pleasure, and fulfilment I receive from contributing my music to people and then seeing the difference it makes for them. In an instant, the less lofty lower rungs of existence – survival, paying bills, assuring shelter – can rear their ugly heads. In many places on this planet, survival IS the name of the game, but here in Canada most of us enjoy the luxury of living for more than survival and I forget that.

Yesterday, at our Quiet Hearts journey in a musical oasis, we seemed to slide back down to the old days. After positive audience growth, we had just 12 people in attendance. At the end, I got the news that donations were poor. With less than $55 contributed and half going to the church, that left us three musicians with a paltry $9 each. Suddenly, rent loomed large. Just 6 days away and not quite covered. Suddenly, down into the dumps of basic survival I rushed and I was a little pissed off at that moment too. The same old tired questions burgeoned in my mind like a skipping record. Am I deluding myself? Is this not as magical as it seems to us? Will it never get better? Will we only be providing this for a tiny number of people forever? Is this as good as it gets?

Then Donna and Cheryl, who were graciously and generously assisting us at the door (for $0) shared some news that changed everything. The news instantly reconnected me to purpose and passion and left me profoundly fulfilled and moved.

What was the news?

Several minutes after we commenced the music, a gentleman in his 60’s arrived. With him was his elderly father, who was a patient next door at St Paul’s Hospital. His father seemed quite confused and Donna suspected he was suffering from dementia. The son had a small window of time to take his father on a respite outside the hospital. They had no idea what they were coming too. Donna and Cheryl explained what it was and so they went into the Sanctuary and listened for about 20 minutes. When they came back out, the son was astounded. He said what they experienced was amazing. The music made such an impact on both him and his father. He knew it had made an impact on his father because, when he turned to look at his father during the performance, he was shocked to see tears falling from his eyes. He had never seen his father do this.

Sometimes words are not enough. This is where the magic of music comes in. Sometimes, music is the doorway in. Sometimes music is the thing that can move past the confusion, the absence of communication and understanding, and connect with someone in trouble or seemingly unconnected to the world.

I’m so grateful that man and his father came and I’m so glad Donna and Cheryl were there to witness and share what happened. If they hadn’t been there, we would never have known and I would likely have gone home pissed off and living in the lower rungs of existence.

It’s good to remember…

My world transformed in an instant.

Our next Quiet Hearts is Wednesday, October 1 from 4:30 to 5:45 at St. Andrew’s-Wesley United Church (Nelson & Burrard)

With gratitude,
Craig

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Rediscovering Childlike Expression and Joy

As a young child, something I adored and revelled in was dancing. I used to give performances for my mother’s friends and guests when they visited our house. Mother would put on some Tchaikovsky, Mozart or other musical masterpiece and I would proceed to give a wondrous performance. I danced around the room, on the couches, and on the chairs (if they weren’t occupied). I remember the absolute freedom and confidence I felt and the sheer joy of moving and responding to the music.

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Today, I can’t remember the last time I danced or moved with that kind of freedom and self expression. Where did it go? I suspect I invest that kind of childlike creativity, wonder and freedom in other artistic pursuits such as music, but I must confess, I miss that dancing.

My upcoming participation in the Just for Joy Retreat on Saturday, September 20 from 10am to 3pm has rekindled the possibility of reclaiming that kind of joy in movement and expression. I’ll be contributing a musical meditation and journey later during the event. Before that, I am excited to unleash aspects of my creativity which have lain dormant, unused and perhaps undiscovered.

One of those is Nia Dance with Lulu Chavez Grajales. I’m curious to see what happens and what I discover.

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Other great creative unleashings during the event include learning to do Soul Collages with Dawn Howlett, a peaceful sound reflection with sound practitioner Kathy Cameron, and a beautiful nutritious vegetarian lunch courtesy of Marilyn McNeill.

Deadline to Register is September 17!

Hurry, the deadline to register is Wednesday evening. Contact either myself or Kathy Cameron to reserve your spot. You might qualify for our special 2 for 1 pricing or even one of a select few scholarships.

  • Craig Addy: 604-662-3053 or Craig@UnderThePiano.ca
  • Kathy Cameron: 604-340-4955 or info@thesoulofsound.com

Register online here: http://www.thesoulofsound.com/events.html

Just for Joy Retreat

Saturday, September 20, 2014
10am to 3pm
St. Mary’s, 2490 W. 37th Avenue, Vancouver

Regularly $78
Call to see if you qualify for the 2 for 1 special or one of our select scholarships

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An Apple Made Me Cry

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June 26, 2014

Today, an apple made me cry.

Here’s how I arrived at this moment in which I was moved by an apple.

Last week, my friend Janet and I challenged each other to follow our respective eating plans perfectly – no fudging or cheating. We are both committed to having lives that include nutritious eating and well being. Over coffee last Friday, we were chatting about eating and noticing how neither of us seem to be able to go for more than a day or two before we chose the cake or candy instead of the fruit or salad. I said, “This is crazy. When you look at it, what is the challenge in promising to follow an eating plan perfectly for just 1 week? It’s not like some amazing feat or breakthrough.” Yet, based on our past experience, it seems it is indeed a challenge. So there and then at 12 noon on Friday, we challenged each other to follow our eating plans perfectly. She’s inspired by the paleo diet. I’m inspired by Dr Joel Fuhrman’s Eat to Live approach to eating.

This is not ultimately about the diet or about losing x number of pounds by the end of the week. It’s about honouring and respecting ourselves and following through with a promise to ourselves because we made it to ourselves. When I make a promise to myself and I don’t keep it or avoid acknowledging that I have not kept it, I diminish myself. I chip away at my view of myself as an amazing being with my own special set of gifts, abilities and things to contribute. Bit by bit, I lessen and lessen myself. These little promises to ourselves that we break are all over the place. If you look at your life, do you see some? If you look honestly, I bet you will find some. I think this breaking of promises to ourselves is human. To be human, is to do so. It’s not personal. It’s part of being a human being.

The rules we created are simple. Follow the principals of your eating plan exactly as it is designed. No bending of rules. Do it perfectly.

We created a secret Facebook group where we could check in and share thoughts and feelings that come up as we play our game.

We have both noticed how powerful desire is. We both came up against the muffin in the coffee shop beckoning and pleading to the automatic feelings and urges that get triggered when we see it. The difference this time, is that my whole focus is on my promise to myself and honouring what’s fundamentally important for my well being and my future. I could have made a number of promises – my finances, my living environment, my physical fitness, or contributing to people in my life. The point is to fulfill on the promise because you said so.

This has actually been a miracle for me. There have been wonderful surprises and rewards. The first reward was that I knew I was going to meet the challenge and fulfill on my promise by the end of day three. I got for myself that I can do this. Doubt ran away. As urges and desires came forth, it was easy to say “no”. The second surprise is that my passion for cooking has been reignited. I used to cook a great deal and I loved it. When I moved away from my family and then converted my dining area into a workspace, cooking disappeared from my life. Not completely, but what little I did became this rushed activity that was getting in the way of other important activities. Over the week, I’ve had to cook for myself to ensure I am following the plan perfectly and I’ve had so much fun discovering wonderful new recipes. The third reward has been noticing a shift in how food tastes. I’ve been following Fuhrman’s principals loosely for some time, but immersing myself in it completely has created a shift. There’s very little salt in his eating plan and I am now finally beginning to not miss it. In fact, I am noticing the salt that already exists in food naturally. With the complete removal of salt, processed sugar, processed flours and processed oils, what remains is the natural flavours. I am becoming much more attuned to the flavours. When you removed the addictive mask of salt and processed sugar you start noticing the subtle and much more varied flavours underneath.

The Apple.

Back to the apple. Today, I was sitting outside eating a delicious salad for lunch. I finished the meal with an apple. As I ate the apple, I became intensely aware and appreciative of the miracle of the apple: the juices and flavours exploding in my mouth and the wonder that such a thing as an apple even exists for me to eat. I became deeply connected with the apple. Yes, that is what happened and I was moved. I became aware of all the beauty and wonder that surrounds me all the time everyday. It is always there. Often, I am just too busy “thinking” about things that have happened or might happen to appreciate the gold I already have at hand.

During your next meal, take some time to intensely and intentionally be present to the food you are eating. Stop talking, stop watching TV, stop reading your facebook timeline, stop checking your text messages. Simply be with the miracle you are putting in your mouth. You won’t regret it and you’ll likely get present to the wonder and gift of being alive.

 

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The Exotic Music of The Soul of Sound

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The Exotic Music of The Soul of Sound
with Quiet Hearts

Journeys in a Musical Oasis

Wednesday, July 23, 2014
4:30 to 5:45pm

St. Andrew’s-Wesley United Church, 1012 Nelson St., Vancouver, BC. 
Occasionally we have last minute cancellations. Check our online calendar to confirm events at 
www.amicusmusicduo.com or call 604-662-3053

A minimum donation of $10 is recommended.

July 23 is a special opportunity for Quiet Hearts fans. We are again joined by Kathy Cameron of The Soul of Sound.

Have you ever heard a Moyo Drum? An Ocean Drum? How about a Shruti or a Manipuri Heart Singing Bowl?

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Singing Bowl

Then there are Kathy’s gongs. She has four very large gongs. When all four of those gongs resonate and sing you will discover how your whole body does the same. All of Kathy’s magical sounds inspire new improvisational adventures and discoveries for Mark, Howard and Craig when they play along with her on their more traditional western instruments. You have to hear it to believe it.

Listen to Kathy playing her gongs at a past Quiet Hearts musical journey.

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Gongs

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Shruti

What is Quiet Hearts?

Quiet Hearts is one of  Vancouver’s most exquisite and unique experiences. 
It is an intimate and relaxing musical occasion that is like a holiday away from everyday pressures. Entering St. Andrew’s-Wesley’s magical space is like discovering an oasis in a stressful and noisy urban environment. Professional musicians improvise beautiful music in one of  Vancouver’s most stunning cathedral acoustics. 
Quiet Hearts listeners are transported, moved and inspired by enchanting flavours of music embracing classical, new age, jazz, folk and world styles. 
It’s romantic. It’s meditative. It’s soothing. 
Listeners rave that they “can’t believe” these musical journeys are 
composed on the spot. Quiet Hearts is truly a journey in a musical oasis.

Who is Quiet Hearts?

The Amicus Music Duo – Craig Addy, piano  &  Howard Meadows, clarinet  |  Mark De Silva, violin & vocals | Special Guest – Kathy Cameron, percussion

Contact us

for schedule updates and information at 
604-662-3053 • www.amicusmusicduo.com  •  quiethearts@amicusmusicduo.com

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I had the pleasure of being invited to contribute both a presentation and musical experience at the Lower Mainland Grief Recovery AGM on June 5, 2014.

Board members and grief counselors Chris Newell and Carolyn Main have attended several Quiet Hearts events and Chris has also experienced Under the Piano.

I shared my own personal journey with music and how it provides solace, stress relief, and reprieve in difficult times. While I am not a trained music therapist there is no question that what I create is music therapy for many people. I was so happy to provide the nurturing and healing power of music for a group of people who give so much to others who are recovering from the loss of a loved one.

The LMGRS is a non-profit registered charitable organization that has been organizing grief support groups in the greater Vancouver area since it was incorporated in 1990.These programs are offered in the communities of Kerrisdale, the North Shore and Downtown Vancouver.

Our programs are designed for those who have suffered the death of a significant person by helping them understand, cope and live with their loss. We help the grieving person move from pain to healing in a non-judgemental, compassionate and confidential environment.

Learn more here: http://lmgr.ca/

 

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Bed Wetting and Financial Freedom

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I discovered something about myself recently that has had a profoundly disempowering impact on my life since I was a child.

Here’s how it happened

On the morning of Monday, April 14, my phone service got cut off. I had waited too long to make a required payment. Such is my financial life – an endless cycle of taking things to the edge and scraping by. It seems I only take actions that produce financial results when something truly urgent, like this or having an eviction notice slid under the door (yes, been there too), happens.

I used to be proud of this frantic money causing – I’d say “See what I can do when the cards are down”. But in this reincarnation of the cycle, I had the presence of mind to see what it really was – an ever repeating part of the same cycle and that I had to consider it was not powerful at all.

I stopped.

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On Monday morning, I had the presence of mind to simply stop.

I stopped the action and allowed myself to be with the upset. Underneath the urge for frantic action was a deep and heavy lethargy. For a day and a half I sat with not wanting to do anything. I vacillated between sad and tearful and numb. I got coaching and didn’t want to do anything I was told to do.

Then I got more coaching the following day at 3 pm.

In that conversation (on Skype) I distinguished for myself the foundational source of much of my disempowerment in life. We finished the call in laughter – I told the coach, I was hoping for something a little more profound, but there you go.

This is what happened

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I was probably 4 or 5 years old when one night my grandmother came into my bedroom. I had wet my bed. I can see the open door with the light from the hall streaming in and silhouetting her and I remember the look on her face – the pinched mouth and nose, the frowning eyes. While I don’t remember her exact words, I remember the deep disapproval and disappointment and the communication that I must not wet my bed. I’m not supposed to do that.

Then I decided something 

Then I decided something about myself that has been invisibly ruling my life ever since.

  • I decided that there was something wrong with me and that I was helpless to do anything about it.
  • I decided that I was “supposed” to be able to do something about it but couldn’t.
  • I decided that no one must find out.

This did not go well. Imagine how sleep overs, overnight school outings, and hotel visits went. I dreaded them, because people would find out.

I wet my bed right up until I was nearly 15. There were many attempts to fix the problem, including visiting Dr Ping to consider an operation and, when I was younger, late night wake ups to be taken to the bathroom. I remember literally falling asleep against the wall in the hallway and bathroom as I was guided to the toilet to take a pee and avoid the bed wetting disaster – nothing ever worked.

How it has impacted my life

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Even though I no longer wet my bed, I live my life like I am still always “going” to wet my bed. It’s important to get, until now, this has been invisible to me.

My whole hidden unconscious agenda in life is hiding that I wet my bed. At the same time it’s pointless because it will ultimately be discovered. Everyone will find out eventually. Grandma will come in and admonish me.

The biggest and most profound impact is I am powerless to say how anything will go. I can say it will go this or that way a million times, but underneath I know I will still wet my bed. I know it will not work out. I know I have no say in the matter.

What it looks like

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I’m starting to see the impact all over the place in the smallest things to the biggest things. Self doubt arises so easily. I avoid deciding on or choosing even simple things. I just don’t want to commit to anything because I know I will fail.

There can be no chinks in the armour. Any weakness is a window to discovery of how damaged and wrong I am. Nothing can be wrong or people will find out. It is why I have been so thin skinned about criticism and why I must appear to know everything. It is why I don’t like hanging out in groups for too long. It is likely why I have never been willing to truly give my heart to a partner in life – a bed wetter is not interested in sharing a bed.

As I laughingly said to my coach – I see why I always stay up late at night – I stay up until I simply can’t keep my eyes open, even when I know I need to get up in less than 5 hours. When I go to sleep “trouble” will surely follow.

Discovering all this is paradoxically profound and hilarious

Who would of thought some stinky liquid on a mattress has been ruling my life. It’s nothing really. It’s all a grand and silly joke. Yet, it’s also been everything. Look at what I’ve made it mean about myself.

What’s possible now

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What’s possible for me now is that anything IS possible. I do have say in the matters I care about in life. I am creating myself as a person in the world who is boundlessly creative, expressive and an enormous contribution. I get to move beyond the barrier of me, the bed wetter, and create a world for all that is boundlessly creative, expressive and full of enormous contribution.

Standing here right now I REALLY can say how it will go. I know we can have hundreds of people attending Quiet Hearts concerts. I know I can make a difference for up to 40 people each month when they come and lie under my piano. Every week, clients and listeners go out of their way to share how the music I create touches their hearts and makes a difference for them in deep and meaningful ways. I’m done with providing this for 10’s when it can be 1,000’s. I’m done with keeping myself small with pointless and ultimately trivial financial problems. That’s not what I’m here for. It’s time to be big and make a difference on a much larger scale.

I am not saying it will be easy. I am saying it’s possible.

My inspiration out of this discovery is to live a life being vulnerable, bold and tenacious. There is freedom in being vulnerable – in sharing this. I’m shouting to the world that I was a bed wetter. You all know now and I’m still alive and well. The sky has not fallen.

My mission and vision

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My big dreams and aspirations are simple and powerful. I know they are powerful, because I already get to see the difference my music makes for people. My musical offerings have made a difference for mothers who have lost babies, people grieving the loss of loved ones, people looking for relief from daily pressures and stress, artists seeking inspiration, couples celebrating and honouring their relationship, and people who simply want to get out of the state of over-thinking and analyzing everything. I am creating beautiful music in the world that provides nurture, solace and a haven from pressures and difficulties in life. It provides an access to “be” with issues and resolve issues. It also provides the space for personal creativity to emerge and flourish.

Are you in?

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If anything about this inspires you and you see what’s possible for yourself and others out of playing a bigger game in life, then now is a good time to act. Make a difference for yourself or someone in your life. If my dream and vision for music making a difference for people inspires you, support and contribute to me.

I have some big games. Accomplishing them would see the end of financial struggle and create huge opportunities to expand the difference my music makes to a whole new level.

Short term goals – by December 31, 2014

  1.  700 people are attending our Quiet Hearts Concerts each week.
  2. 1000 Facebook fans for our Quiet Hearts page by June 30, 2014.
  3. 30 to 40 people lying Under the Piano each month.
  4. 1000 Facebook fans for my Under the Piano page by June 30, 2014.
  5. Increase CD and digital downloads of my music by 500%
  6. Release our first Quiet hearts album.

Bigger 5 year game

  1. Under the Piano and Quiet Hearts goes international
  2. I want to take this beyond the confines of Vancouver and provide this gift to people in cities like New York, Paris and Tokyo
  3. I am now traveling for annual concert and music workshop tours
  4. I have 60,000 Facebook fans for each page
  5. I can’t keep track of music download sales and CD purchases anymore – there are so many.

How you can give support

Giving the gift of my offerings to yourself or a music loving friend or family member is the best way to support me in forwarding my dreams.

To assist in having that come alive in the world today:

  1. Come to a Quiet Hearts concert – http://www.amicusmusicduo.com
  2. Book an Under the Piano session for yourself at http://www.UnderThePiano.ca (go to services & products)
  3. Give a gift certificate for Under the Piano at http://www.UnderThePiano.ca (go to services & products)
  4. Purchase and/or download one of my CDs. http://www.cdbaby.com/Artist/CraigAddy

In addition to the above or if you can’t provide support financially at this time but you are inspired by music and what I am creating, become a fan by “liking” my pages, signing up for my newsletter, and sharing my music. Please only do this because you are truly inspired. I want fans and email subscribers who are genuinely moved by my music and vision. I don’t need you to be “nice” to me. Every ‘like’ gets me one step closer to 1000 fans by the end of June, 2014.

  1. Like our Quiet Hearts page at https://www.facebook.com/AmicusMusicDuo
  2. Like my Under the Piano page at https://www.facebook.com/UnderThePiano
  3. Sign up for my newsletter at http://craigaddy.com/ – every page has an Email Sign-up form
  4. Use the share links on my Reverbnation music pages to share my music http://www.reverbnation.com/craigaddy  & http://www.reverbnation.com/quiethearts
  5. Share music and events I post on Facebook and Social Media whenever you see them
  6. Connect me with someone who can help spread the word about my music and what it provides in the world.

 

Many thanks
Craig

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